|this picture exemplifies how I want to feel in 2012|
For Christmas I was fortunate enough to get to go home to Okanogan with my sisters and spend time with my mom and see family. It even snowed for about 20 minutes so I was happy. I am so thankful that I have my sisters, they have been the best nurses and cheerleaders for the past three years, and chauffeurs as well. My back is still all messed up, so I was unable to drive to Okanogan, thank goodness for family!
After Christmas we had to head back on the 27th for me to have an outpatient procedure at UW medical on the 28th. If you follow my blog you know that my right ovary is two times as big as the left and it is full of cysts.....so we needed to do an endometerial biopsy to check that everything is okay.
***next paragraph discusses lower lady parts in detail***
Also I chose to have a ParaGaurd (copper, no hormones) IUD placed at the same time. Because I am on the Tamoxifen, lets just say my lower lady-parts are more like the Sahara than the Pacific Northwest, so even having a pap was so painful I cried. As a result we decided that me being sedated for both the biopsy and IUD placement was a good idea. I am recovering from those procedures pretty quick. I am still having some bad cramps but overall not so bad--and the best part? The biopsy results came back NEGATIVE!!!! At least some of my lady-parts are working with me.
And then there was New Years..........2012. Another year of moving away from cancer us behind me, it had its ups and downs, but when most of the chemo fog lifted I was really able to start to become the person I wanted to be, and really started to work on some stuff internally. I am hoping for this trend of healing and opportunity to continue in 2012.
|New Years Eve 2012 (I was wearing an apron because I was in character for the Murder Mystery Party)|
I am bringing into 2012 a right boob that I can rest my chin on (so I may have a few more surgeries in 2012) but I feel like my family and myself are pros at this point, so I am not too worried. I am bringing a continually sore back and neck from my car accident (I still am working supported by heating pads and pillows in bed), a new care provider team at Seattle Cancer Care Alliance (both oncology and gynecology) and optimism coming out of the wazooo!
Here are my New Years Resolutions, some tangible and others I just want to put out into the universe:
1. remain cancer free
2. write the proposal for my book
3. continue to sort through the mental stuff
4. blog more often
5. begin my work out routine (once I get the okay from my providers after the accident)
6. start to attend more births, get back into the birth/education part of my life that I have been missing
7. get involved with Breast Cancer agencies and start to support women like I have been supported
8. do my best to show friends and family how much I love them and how much their support, actions, love and prayers make my heart sing
9. begin to paint and take classes
10. learn to love the new me, a little more everyday