|part of a wonderful care package!|
Despite the heavy arm I am feeling better than after any of the past chemos. Don't get me wrong, it is a bitch and I felt really shitty for the week after chemo (the worst yet). But today I feel somewhat normal. I even was even able to stay up (without any naps) and visit with a great friend this evening (love you Allison!)---it was normal. Well somewhat normal, prior to cancer I never would have pulled down my shirt so she could take a look at my "boobs" and discuss the addition of extra skin for nipples or to have them tattooed on in 3D....but that is my new normal...I chose to embrace it.
I am looking forward to the weekend. Scott is running his second marathon so we are traveling to Portland Saturday and then he will run with my father-in-law on Sunday. I also get to celebrate my sisters engagement tomorrow night--a full weekend, just like before cancer. I know I will have to sit a lot while watching the race (my mom made sure I had a chair that I will bring) and it won't be like his last race where I stood for hours and walked like a mile for coffee................new normal, got it. I will be the chubby, somewhat bald, scarf wearing, very sweaty, wife of an athletic, running crazed man sitting in a lounge chair on the side of the marathon course............if somehow a beer could be placed in my hand it would be paradise.
My new thing is bloody noses..........